Cabo, Mexico
Where Jim would never go . . .
" It was then that I realized why I had been crying. It was because I was leaving Jim, and really this time. I was leaving the Jim-less me for the new me. I was making memories that didn’t have him in them. Going places he couldn’t come, wouldn’t want to be. There would be no going back, no reconciliation. My new better life was a casting out of him, a turning away from the things that used to be.
I stretched out in the cushioned lounge chair and let my funky melancholy go. The waves crashed up onto the sand and retreated, taking my heaviness with it. The changing surface of the sea caught my attention-- restless, surging, relentless, corrugated, puckered, stippled, shirred, transient, frothy, lacy. It was comfortable being all those things, and I could be comfortable being more than one way too. I lifted my eyes to the horizon where the edge of the indigo water met a pale sapphire sky. Its wide foreverness filled both sides of my peripheral vision. Before me, I imagined I could see the slight curve of the earth."
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" It was then that I realized why I had been crying. It was because I was leaving Jim, and really this time. I was leaving the Jim-less me for the new me. I was making memories that didn’t have him in them. Going places he couldn’t come, wouldn’t want to be. There would be no going back, no reconciliation. My new better life was a casting out of him, a turning away from the things that used to be.
I stretched out in the cushioned lounge chair and let my funky melancholy go. The waves crashed up onto the sand and retreated, taking my heaviness with it. The changing surface of the sea caught my attention-- restless, surging, relentless, corrugated, puckered, stippled, shirred, transient, frothy, lacy. It was comfortable being all those things, and I could be comfortable being more than one way too. I lifted my eyes to the horizon where the edge of the indigo water met a pale sapphire sky. Its wide foreverness filled both sides of my peripheral vision. Before me, I imagined I could see the slight curve of the earth."
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